I had a client come to see me because they were feeling quite fearful and wanted to clear the fear by finding out what was causing it. Her aim was to find the source of the fear and let it go. She felt it must have been a past life because of all things she was afraid of small birds. She said that they are lovely, but the fear was quite irrational and she didn’t know why she felt like that.
 
She said that she also felt fear at other times but couldn’t place why. Fear would surface and she felt it was completely irrational.  As we began her healing journey, where she felt she would experience a past life, a funny thing happened. I felt a spirit in the room and at the same time, she began to say that she was visualising a woman standing in front of her…with birds flying around her.
 
She  began to feel  quite frightened  at this point as she visualised the woman with the birds flying around her. She was confused as she said “part of me thinks she looks beautiful with these lovely birds around her, and a part of me is very scared”.
 
The spirit shared with me that when Jenny was a child, she was trying to connect with her, as Jenny felt very lonely and she was trying to be her ‘imaginary friend’. At that time, she imprinted on Jenny that she was surrounded by swallows so as not to frighten Jenny and so that Jenny could feel safe and visualise something pretty. Jenny, unfortunately was frightened as she ‘felt’ someone in her room and this was scaring her.
 
The spirit returned during this session to apologise to Jenny and share what had really happened to her. Jenny was a psychic, sensitive child but without training or knowing about her abilities, she was frightened. This is very typical of clients I have seen at other times who didn’t know they were psychic as a child, however, had psychic experiences and ended up shutting them down to survive – because they felt fearful.
 
During this session, I asked Jenny to connect with the vision she was having and sense the energy this lady was sending to her ( I hadn’t told her it was a spirit – I wanted her to sense what was happening). She said that the lady seemed nice and that the birds seemed ok. I asked her to let her ‘inner child’ sense this lady to see what she felt. She said that her ‘inner child’ was scared.
 
I then spoke to Jenny about how she connected with this spirit during her childhood and that the spirit was trying to befriend her so she wouldn’t feel lonely…Jenny began to cry… she connected with the soul essence of this spirit who was trying to be loving toward her.
 
Her inner child did a remarkable thing then…..she visualised her reaching out and letting a bird settle on her finger. I asked her how that felt, and she said ‘ok I guess’.  I then saw a number of spirits around Jenny who had all tried to find a way to impress upon her they were with her when she felt at her loneliest, but because she had shut down out of fear every time she sensed a spirit, she couldn’t connect with them.
 
Over the next ten minutes we did a forgiveness exercise, where she was able to forgive them for scaring her, she really tuned in to compassion in herself, that they were there to help her, not scare her, the tears were falling softly and I knew my work was done.
 
We finished this session and I have sinced checked in with Jenny to see how she is progressing, and she is doing fine, oh… and birds are not so scary now.  Jenny is someone who meditates and practices Reiki. I am excited for her, as I have always felt her energy to be gentle and knew she was psychic, it just had to be rekindled at a rate she could handle. I believe  going forward that if she continues to meditate and practice reiki that she will slowly allow her psychic talent to become more open.
 
So…. back to: are you anxious or are you psychic? If you are psychic and you have shut down your abilities, it is likely that you are sensing spirit but are not sure what to do with it. It is worth learning more about yourself to discover whether you are in fact picking up on spirit and just haven’t been trained in how to connect effectively. In my own life, I suffered from anxiety for many years, not realising that whenever a spirit was near, I would start to panic and not know why. It wasn’t until I began to meditate that I opened my psychic channels and was shown that some of the fear I had was to do with sensing spirit. These days I use that ‘fear reaction’ to tune in to who is around me and connect as required.
 
Fear of lots of things, began for me when I was a small child. I used to have a recurring nightmare about 3 devils coming up out of the ground and dragging me across the dirt towards hell. It terrified me to such an extent that I still take up to an hour to fall asleep at night ( a habit from childhood where I was fearful to go to sleep!!!)
 
About 4 years ago, I had this most beautiful male child spirit in my room, as I tuned into his energy he imprinted that he wanted to apologise. He was a beautiful soul so I couldn’t understand why he wanted to apologise.
 
He told me that he used to talk to me when I was a child, he used to ask me over and over “I’ve been really bad, will I go to hell, I am frightened of being dragged to hell, will you help me? And he also showed me he connected with me through my dreams as the nightmare I had as a child, being pulled into hell. This was a light bulb moment for me, recognition that I had been connecting with spirit for a very long time but had not recognised it, as I worked so hard to shut it down. So if your child says, “there is someone over there” or you catch them chatting away to their ‘invisible friend’ know that you are likely dealing with a beautiful, sensitive, psychic child who may be in need of  your understanding or ability to listen without judgement. Who knows, given time they may surprise you with what they say and do.

For all of you that have ever wondered "why does this bother me?". "Why do I instantly dislike them, him, her?". "Why can't I speak up for myself" or "Why do I feel so connected with that person?" or any other relevant question, I hope this story will give you a greater understanding of why it is so.

To give you a better understanding of how past lives can impact on your present life, I wanted to share my own story.....or one small part of it. I recently did a past life regression as I am learning to speak up for myself more and trust myself more ...but this intention was bringing up some fear for me. A lot of fear in fact, so I wanted to clear it out, so that I could more easily express myself.

As a hypnotherapist and Past Life Regression facilitator, I have viewed many of my past lives, so when someone recently offered to do a past life regression on me, at a fair in Sydney, I personally didn't think anything new would come up. I thought I had seen so many of my lives and released so much fear, in trepidation and learnt so much about myself that I said no, and was about to walk away... when I heard behind me.."I'll give you a discount".

Well, it wasn't the discount that encouraged me to give it a go, but I felt that it was meant to be, as its not usual for someone to offer a discount on an already good price.I sat down, and when I was asked what I wanted to work on, I said " to be able to love more freely, to not block". 

We started the regression and I began to see a really large old door, an arch shaped door with an old locking mechanism. I pulled the door open to peer inside, only to see a cobblestone, cold floor and a very small dark place, with only a small window for light. I sensed I lived in this room, I looked like a man, I had very, old hands and my arms were very malnurished. I could sense that I had been in this room for a very long time.

The more I saw, the more I began to understand how it connected with my present life. During this past life, I had been a priest, and during my reflection and prayer time, I had discovered a personal God. I felt the presence of unconditional love and lightness. I was so exhilerated that I wanted to share this devotion to a personal God with everyone...so began to teach this. Unfortunately this was not allowed and so, I was thrown into prison to live the rest of my days. 

Now, you would think that I would feel angry and frustrated at this happening to me, or even full of anger, but, what I truly felt was unconditional love. I felt that if I ever had the opportunity again to share the personal spirit of God, then I would want to teach that. My words during this session were "only love is real", the rest is fabricated. (When I later looked up the meaning of this word I began to understand the significance of its meaning - it means: To invent something in order to deceive).

In that past life, I had wanted 'everyone' to experience the universal life force energy of unconditional love, known to me as God in that lifetime. I wanted everyone to go within, reflect, pray and find the beauty that I had discovered, however, it wasn't meant to be.

The irony is, that being placed in a cold, dank room for the remainder of my life, only gave me more time to reflect, pray and discover the internal presence of God / Spirit...so in effect it was a blessing in disguise. 

During this session, my whole body shook, from the inside out...as it does when you are shivering from the cold. I was suprised at how reactive to this session my body was. It made me realise how much I was holding on  to keep myself safe. 

In this lifetime, I have found it hard to speak up about what I believe to be truth. The fear stems from past lives, where I have been punished for speaking out. (burnt at the stake, imprisoned, mouth wired almost shut are lifetimes I remember). The memory of these lifetimes lie below the conscious mind, so it takes a good past life therapist to draw them out, and this was no exception. 

By clearing the energy from this past life, I have felt more free, more clear and more balanced on moving forward.I can now speak my truth...it may not be your truth.. and that's ok, but I will find my soul tribe and I will share what I need to share with them. It is very exciting to liberate yourself from past fears and allow your life to move ahead in leaps and bounds. Past life therapy is one way to do that.