She said that she also felt fear at other times but couldn’t place why. Fear would surface and she felt it was completely irrational. As we began her healing journey, where she felt she would experience a past life, a funny thing happened. I felt a spirit in the room and at the same time, she began to say that she was visualising a woman standing in front of her…with birds flying around her.
She began to feel quite frightened at this point as she visualised the woman with the birds flying around her. She was confused as she said “part of me thinks she looks beautiful with these lovely birds around her, and a part of me is very scared”.
The spirit shared with me that when Jenny was a child, she was trying to connect with her, as Jenny felt very lonely and she was trying to be her ‘imaginary friend’. At that time, she imprinted on Jenny that she was surrounded by swallows so as not to frighten Jenny and so that Jenny could feel safe and visualise something pretty. Jenny, unfortunately was frightened as she ‘felt’ someone in her room and this was scaring her.
The spirit returned during this session to apologise to Jenny and share what had really happened to her. Jenny was a psychic, sensitive child but without training or knowing about her abilities, she was frightened. This is very typical of clients I have seen at other times who didn’t know they were psychic as a child, however, had psychic experiences and ended up shutting them down to survive – because they felt fearful.
During this session, I asked Jenny to connect with the vision she was having and sense the energy this lady was sending to her ( I hadn’t told her it was a spirit – I wanted her to sense what was happening). She said that the lady seemed nice and that the birds seemed ok. I asked her to let her ‘inner child’ sense this lady to see what she felt. She said that her ‘inner child’ was scared.
I then spoke to Jenny about how she connected with this spirit during her childhood and that the spirit was trying to befriend her so she wouldn’t feel lonely…Jenny began to cry… she connected with the soul essence of this spirit who was trying to be loving toward her.
Her inner child did a remarkable thing then…..she visualised her reaching out and letting a bird settle on her finger. I asked her how that felt, and she said ‘ok I guess’. I then saw a number of spirits around Jenny who had all tried to find a way to impress upon her they were with her when she felt at her loneliest, but because she had shut down out of fear every time she sensed a spirit, she couldn’t connect with them.
Over the next ten minutes we did a forgiveness exercise, where she was able to forgive them for scaring her, she really tuned in to compassion in herself, that they were there to help her, not scare her, the tears were falling softly and I knew my work was done.
We finished this session and I have sinced checked in with Jenny to see how she is progressing, and she is doing fine, oh… and birds are not so scary now. Jenny is someone who meditates and practices Reiki. I am excited for her, as I have always felt her energy to be gentle and knew she was psychic, it just had to be rekindled at a rate she could handle. I believe going forward that if she continues to meditate and practice reiki that she will slowly allow her psychic talent to become more open.
So…. back to: are you anxious or are you psychic? If you are psychic and you have shut down your abilities, it is likely that you are sensing spirit but are not sure what to do with it. It is worth learning more about yourself to discover whether you are in fact picking up on spirit and just haven’t been trained in how to connect effectively. In my own life, I suffered from anxiety for many years, not realising that whenever a spirit was near, I would start to panic and not know why. It wasn’t until I began to meditate that I opened my psychic channels and was shown that some of the fear I had was to do with sensing spirit. These days I use that ‘fear reaction’ to tune in to who is around me and connect as required.
Fear of lots of things, began for me when I was a small child. I used to have a recurring nightmare about 3 devils coming up out of the ground and dragging me across the dirt towards hell. It terrified me to such an extent that I still take up to an hour to fall asleep at night ( a habit from childhood where I was fearful to go to sleep!!!)
About 4 years ago, I had this most beautiful male child spirit in my room, as I tuned into his energy he imprinted that he wanted to apologise. He was a beautiful soul so I couldn’t understand why he wanted to apologise.
He told me that he used to talk to me when I was a child, he used to ask me over and over “I’ve been really bad, will I go to hell, I am frightened of being dragged to hell, will you help me? And he also showed me he connected with me through my dreams as the nightmare I had as a child, being pulled into hell. This was a light bulb moment for me, recognition that I had been connecting with spirit for a very long time but had not recognised it, as I worked so hard to shut it down. So if your child says, “there is someone over there” or you catch them chatting away to their ‘invisible friend’ know that you are likely dealing with a beautiful, sensitive, psychic child who may be in need of your understanding or ability to listen without judgement. Who knows, given time they may surprise you with what they say and do.